being positive
Feb. 2nd, 2013 01:43 pm![[personal profile]](http://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
smg01I think I spent a good portion of last year in a mild depression. There was stuff--especially work--that I wanted to care about, but somehow... couldn't. Everything just seemed really hard.
I don't want to make it sound more serious than it was. When I say mild, I mean quite mild. I'm prone to the blues on occasion, but they usually don't last more than a few days or a couple of weeks. This time it went for several months.
But for the last few weeks I've been feeling a lot better. I feel like I've got a much better handle on work things again. Although it is going to be a strange year. My boss is retiring. The Big Boss will also be retiring in a few months. He's already hired his replacement--who will start next week and then ascend to director status in the fall. Lots of changes in store. They'll probably be good, but, still a little anxiety inducing.
I also even cleaned the bathroom today. Well, cleaned up the top few layers of grime at least. You know how sometimes people say something is a mess and they really mean it's just kind of dirty? Yeah, that wasn't this. Things had reached a pretty mortifying state. Now, if only the house elves would tidy up the kitchen and clear up the rather overloaded coffee table in my living room. Baby steps.
Also, I pulled up an old 3/4 finished fic that I had abandoned a couple of years ago or so. It's actually not that bad, I don't think. It needs a good bit of polishing and, you know, an ending, but I just might have it in me to finish it up. Maybe even for Gen Fic Day.
The other ongoing battle/goal is to bring some semblance of order to my sleep/go to bed patterns. I have a feeling it would be a lot better for me if I'd stop falling asleep on the couch and then dragging myself up to bed at 3:00 am.
And, Spring Training starts in a week (I love baseball), and that means that spring is not so far away. The days are already noticeably longer. This always lifts my spirits.
I don't want to make it sound more serious than it was. When I say mild, I mean quite mild. I'm prone to the blues on occasion, but they usually don't last more than a few days or a couple of weeks. This time it went for several months.
But for the last few weeks I've been feeling a lot better. I feel like I've got a much better handle on work things again. Although it is going to be a strange year. My boss is retiring. The Big Boss will also be retiring in a few months. He's already hired his replacement--who will start next week and then ascend to director status in the fall. Lots of changes in store. They'll probably be good, but, still a little anxiety inducing.
I also even cleaned the bathroom today. Well, cleaned up the top few layers of grime at least. You know how sometimes people say something is a mess and they really mean it's just kind of dirty? Yeah, that wasn't this. Things had reached a pretty mortifying state. Now, if only the house elves would tidy up the kitchen and clear up the rather overloaded coffee table in my living room. Baby steps.
Also, I pulled up an old 3/4 finished fic that I had abandoned a couple of years ago or so. It's actually not that bad, I don't think. It needs a good bit of polishing and, you know, an ending, but I just might have it in me to finish it up. Maybe even for Gen Fic Day.
The other ongoing battle/goal is to bring some semblance of order to my sleep/go to bed patterns. I have a feeling it would be a lot better for me if I'd stop falling asleep on the couch and then dragging myself up to bed at 3:00 am.
And, Spring Training starts in a week (I love baseball), and that means that spring is not so far away. The days are already noticeably longer. This always lifts my spirits.